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Beautiful, beautiful art.

It’s 3AM and I’m blogging. Why am I still awake? I have no clue. I usually get 6 or 7 hours of sleep and end up falling asleep around midnight the following day. Last night, however, I got 8/9ish hours asleep which turns out to be enough to keep me awake for a while.

Anyway, the point of this post is beauty and art. I just spent the last hour and a half drawing. I wanted to draw something at first that represented identity crisis or lack of self assurance (reasoning disclosed) but failed to come up with a specific way to interpret it. I instead to drew a representation of two different interpretations of external beauty. I drew a woman’s face and, split in half with one side representing one interpretation and the other side, another. The picture is far from perfect - the eyes and mouth aren’t proportionate to the rest of the face and the hair is a little odd - but, I think it’s one of my favorite things I’ve drawn to date. I think that the fact that the drawing isn’t perfect almost sends across a message that beauty, which the drawing represents, can be found in everything. We all have different interpretations of what beauty is and what we find beautiful. So, in a way, my drawing almost contradicts itself because it represents beauty but by who’s definition? Certainly not mine - I think everything can be and is beautiful. Maybe I’m just tired but I think the contradiction is pretty cool.

Life goal achieved?

One goal I hope to achieve before I die is to positively affect or change someone’s life. When I got into my accident, I didn’t expect for many people to be as affected as they were. Yesterday, I learned that someone who felt as if their life was spiraling down hill and almost purposely harmed themselves quit all thoughts of the like when they heard word of my accident. I suppose it helped them see that causing yourself pain was silly when there were people out there who had it worse off. I’m very glad that they have come to realize this and glad that I am the one who helped them realize it. I think it’s very interesting what can cause “wake-up calls” for people. I think it’s also interesting how “tragedy” can affect lives. I also think it’s sad that it takes something bad for people to come to realizations like this. I am very glad that my friend’s life has been changed for the better and this is not a strike at them at all. I just think it sucks that that is what it takes for some people to realize things. In a way, I feel as if I have achieved my life goal but in another way, I also feel as if I have failed because of what it took to change someone’s life. I just don’t know. This is my thought of the day, I suppose.